Saturday, May 28, 2005

just this very morning, i awoke to the crisp fresh air wafting thru the bunk. it was a sweet savour, distinct yet pleasant. an orange hue blazed across the sky, with crimson clouds welcoming the lovely day with a subtle smile. i took a deep breath and yawned, it was book out day. the feeling was good, very good. and the very thought of knowing you'll be in the soft comfort of home in a mere couple of hours is analogous to that of salt to bland fries. a simple recollection of the past week whizzed through my mind, and with the mild churning of the fan overhead, images of the 2.4km run juxtaposed itself upon the 8 mile walk back home. both taxing, yet of different nature. a glance across the bunk, my buddies still stirring in their sleep and perhaps a few more minutes and their visual perspective will be brought back into reality, back from the depths of fantasy dreams and what have you. the bed felt unusually soft, the blanket warm, didnt seem like a normal training day. but still things needed to be done, things needed to get into gear, and things dont wait for no one.

inevitability. for every winner there is a loser. for every red lightsabre there exists a blue/green one. and for every promising book out, there would be a demoralizing book in.

and its this inevitability we all have to face.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

angelix's quiz of 10 (un)orthodox ways to find out if your life has changed.. in a certain manner.

1) when talking to friends u adopt unknowingly an at ease position. otherwise known as sir nan di ri. there exist a tendency to look straight ahead despite area happenings, eyes fixated to the front, as though some mythical enchantment befell. move at your own peril.

2) you keep staring at your watch. by some force majeur, your watch in all its fanciness, seems to command your gaze upon it ever so often, akin to that of a snake charmer. u like to keep track of the time, and even more so indulge in complaining about how it goes by without u knowing it.

3) u find that hair is such a beautiful part of the human body. ahh yes, those wavy little black strands swaying to the gush of the wind, coloured or tinted strands are even more appealing. first think about your own funky hairstyle, then feel green with envy.

4) water is good. you drink as much as possible and as often as possible. when u start wishing for a cup of water every half hour or so, you know you've had it. withdrawal symptoms include a dry throat and uneasy shifting, all these within an hour or so. think camel.

5) you honestly and seriously look forward to weekends. a lot. a whole lot. never before has those 2 days beckoned with such open and receiving arms, yet sadly enough, these 48 hours go by like sand thru an hourglass, and the entire cycle begins again. vicious. very.

6) fit fit fit! walking down orch road doesnt seem that tiring after all. in fact u feel good that u did those lazy legs some physical justice. covering points from lido to cine doesnt seem that much a chore anymore, in fact u feel so light-footed it seems like u're picking up the pace with those home comfy shoes. next poster person for nike airwalk eh?

7) sitting down becomes a luxury. what more can be said? nothing beats lying in the comfort of a cushioned chair with fitting armrests, with your back superimposed in a 45 degree manner. take a sip of iced tea coupled with a reassuring bag of hershey chocs and u're on the way to man-made uninterrupted bliss. hugging your favourite pillow would be the last straw.

8) u find looking at naked guys bathing normal. no dont show me those fuzzy eyebrows. when u have to queue up to shower, u cant possibly close your eyes all the time. so there. n-o-r-m-a-l. at least for some. ah hem.

9) vulgarities are but mere adjectives to sentences. stretch your vocab, so they say. if almost every sentence u hear requires some sort of censorship containment, perhaps a routine check on the social environment you are currently abiding in should be carried out. while u're at it, try correcting the people who spew these linguistic degrading sentences in rapid succession, instilling in them the importance of keeping conversation on morally healthy grounds. disillusionx will bear no part of the consequences though. =)

10) you've fired guns, thrown grenades, crawled under live fire, survived the cruel jungle warfare, hopped gingerly over barbed wire, dugged trenches, became mosquito food and pitched tents within the last few months. this kinda sums it all up. either u're into guerilla daydreaming, or your life has undergone an epic mutation. evolution of lifestyles.. nice.

so there you are. how did you score?? interestingly enough, u'll either score full marks or none for this. and i got.. *drumroll*... full marks. damn.

Monday, May 16, 2005

1 week ago...

I have begun to pamper myself with the little pleasures in life, mainly to distract myself from the numbing and painfully monotonous millitary life (or maybe just the recruits' life) . My cupboard is literally littered with bags of tidbits and candy. An obvious adverse effect of not having stand by bed. As I munch on chocolates and sip mandarin orange tea, I'm feeling slightly high with POP in sight. Yes, ORD shouldn't be too far away. This has really just been a long exercise programme for me. But wait, there's a route march on monday. Sigh.

This week...

The next and last route march would be the 24km graduation march. Great. There's really nothing much left in BMT. I survived the outfields. I survived the route marches. I survived the live grenade throw. The remaining 3 weeks should be easy. Long waiting/slacking/sleeping/eating time for range practice. What is there to stop me?? But wait, there's always the SOC. Sigh.

I don't know why I have this feeling that my brain is degenerating. I can't seem to think properly. A pretty bad omen. Someone please save me...

Sunday, May 08, 2005

GOLD with Honours... Congrats =D